Is My Soul On Empty?

Once again, Im still overwhelmed
 It seems as if no one and I do mean no one can honestly say and affirm that they understand how I feel.
Not even God. If God does not understand what is the purpose of living.
Every effort, every blessing, everything has been tested this past year. I can not honestly say Im looking forward to another year, just Eternal Sunshine. No one wants to object to evil. They have no filter. Right now my life is that of The Crucible. Where is the truth. How I feel now, life can keep living and passing me by. Im not doing anything to help your pursuit of happiness. Question existing.

Moving along so much for my gift from God. Those women raced my soul every single day. First it started in the classroom. Twenty minutes of chatter all morning. Then a bulletin board. A bunch of The Help type meals coupled with concealed issues of early arrival and the idea of a Fall Festival. Their souls were rolling every single day to no avail!

I believe that the children sleep for three hours plus on any given day. Honestly what I had to experience again was disgusting. If I had my way I would get another tattoo to wash way the disdain and humiliation I had to endure.

Im not going to disgust the morning dew or the need for air refreshing before entering the restroom. Or the itch that rested on my hands until my departure.

It was horrible in every sense of the word. Your focus of making my days at my intern difficult ruined the overall appeal of fostering and guiding developing minds a null and void task.
Not to mention the concealed text and email plots. But to plea your case through my ex sisters is repulsive. I wish your soul comtentment because the little girl in you is the only foundation and perception that you have of integrity. Pretty is ass pretty does. Its all good. "We got enough money to keep your ass in GUCCI and GOLD."
Furthermore, your need to sniff check, race and synchronized destroyed the joy of being a woman. Flossing and tossing what is not yours.

I know CLEARLY how the once exciting bonds of sorority life was destroyed. So many women claim to be but very few are REAL.
I would be spiteful not to wish you well. The extent of your mental leaves me no choice. Asking God to look over my soul
And the souls from the Fiber of My Being!

-Be Forever!

Potentially Definitely: Turning a New Leaf

Much could be said about 2016. Well, 2015 I skated by, I was shocked to say the least. Although my struggle was real, I did not give up the hope of seeing a better year! My birthday started off fun and hopeful and unfortunately, it was not a VERY happy one. Nonetheless, I can honestly say that when the clock struck twelve, I was happy and I had the time of my life, minus friends, minus family. I took a leap of faith and returned to Sweet Home Alabama for some good laughs and the crazy thought that I would hit a jackpot! So much for wishful thinking.

It turned out not to be a big deal, besides its March. And although I would like to forget; its not just March Madness in the NBA. March Madness is everyday, LOL!

Honestly, I was really, really wishing for a Four-Leaved clover. Instead, I experienced nervousness, excitement, nervousness, anger.

Some birthday. I cant camouflage that.... OoWee!

Lost my cars, lost employment. Grew Ill fated and depressed. Forreal. No Tears. Just potential tears.
It grew really bad, I didn't want to really go anywhere, or do anything.

Really had to regroup and put forth effort to move forward. Stature and money was and still is a bit funny to me based on the issues of twenty_sixteen.

I maybe....BLACK. "UGLY" but I'm still here! I say those words again because in the height of change and growth, I was tested HEAVY. My faith was tested HEAVY. And well, how many rounds of fire has to transpire?

Hear Me....

It has been really emotional. Growing and never FULLY changing. Morons.

I am potentially going to definitely see myself in a happy place other than my spirit.

I want happiness to exude in my mind, my body, not just my soul.

Is that too much to ask for in life? Leave a comment, I want to know....

-Be Forever!