Today is Mother's Day. Its exciting and often times the best time of year to consider thy self truly remarkable. I mean, seriously, the birth canal is a pivotal opportunity for our soul to be guided closer or further away from something we hold desirable.
Whats that something, usually dependability. No matter how we feel after that last push, something about you changes. Its challenging, however sometimes it's best to be apprehensive, to gain a more purpose filled moment. The strenght of a woman is sometimes explained how she interacts with her child.
I'm not there quite yet, at some point I will be, here's to motherhood, good days, bad days, let all your days be true, and all your strenght be more true to the challenge of motherhood!
-Be Forever!
Sunday, May 13, 2018
Saturday, October 15, 2016
Is My Soul On Empty?
Once again, Im still overwhelmed
It seems as if no one and I do mean no one can honestly say and affirm that they understand how I feel.
Not even God. If God does not understand what is the purpose of living.
Every effort, every blessing, everything has been tested this past year. I can not honestly say Im looking forward to another year, just Eternal Sunshine. No one wants to object to evil. They have no filter. Right now my life is that of The Crucible. Where is the truth. How I feel now, life can keep living and passing me by. Im not doing anything to help your pursuit of happiness. Question existing.
Moving along so much for my gift from God. Those women raced my soul every single day. First it started in the classroom. Twenty minutes of chatter all morning. Then a bulletin board. A bunch of The Help type meals coupled with concealed issues of early arrival and the idea of a Fall Festival. Their souls were rolling every single day to no avail!
I believe that the children sleep for three hours plus on any given day. Honestly what I had to experience again was disgusting. If I had my way I would get another tattoo to wash way the disdain and humiliation I had to endure.
Im not going to disgust the morning dew or the need for air refreshing before entering the restroom. Or the itch that rested on my hands until my departure.
It was horrible in every sense of the word. Your focus of making my days at my intern difficult ruined the overall appeal of fostering and guiding developing minds a null and void task.
Not to mention the concealed text and email plots. But to plea your case through my ex sisters is repulsive. I wish your soul comtentment because the little girl in you is the only foundation and perception that you have of integrity. Pretty is ass pretty does. Its all good. "We got enough money to keep your ass in GUCCI and GOLD."
Furthermore, your need to sniff check, race and synchronized destroyed the joy of being a woman. Flossing and tossing what is not yours.
I know CLEARLY how the once exciting bonds of sorority life was destroyed. So many women claim to be but very few are REAL.
I would be spiteful not to wish you well. The extent of your mental leaves me no choice. Asking God to look over my soul
And the souls from the Fiber of My Being!
-Be Forever!
It seems as if no one and I do mean no one can honestly say and affirm that they understand how I feel.
Not even God. If God does not understand what is the purpose of living.
Every effort, every blessing, everything has been tested this past year. I can not honestly say Im looking forward to another year, just Eternal Sunshine. No one wants to object to evil. They have no filter. Right now my life is that of The Crucible. Where is the truth. How I feel now, life can keep living and passing me by. Im not doing anything to help your pursuit of happiness. Question existing.
Moving along so much for my gift from God. Those women raced my soul every single day. First it started in the classroom. Twenty minutes of chatter all morning. Then a bulletin board. A bunch of The Help type meals coupled with concealed issues of early arrival and the idea of a Fall Festival. Their souls were rolling every single day to no avail!
I believe that the children sleep for three hours plus on any given day. Honestly what I had to experience again was disgusting. If I had my way I would get another tattoo to wash way the disdain and humiliation I had to endure.
Im not going to disgust the morning dew or the need for air refreshing before entering the restroom. Or the itch that rested on my hands until my departure.
It was horrible in every sense of the word. Your focus of making my days at my intern difficult ruined the overall appeal of fostering and guiding developing minds a null and void task.
Not to mention the concealed text and email plots. But to plea your case through my ex sisters is repulsive. I wish your soul comtentment because the little girl in you is the only foundation and perception that you have of integrity. Pretty is ass pretty does. Its all good. "We got enough money to keep your ass in GUCCI and GOLD."
Furthermore, your need to sniff check, race and synchronized destroyed the joy of being a woman. Flossing and tossing what is not yours.
I know CLEARLY how the once exciting bonds of sorority life was destroyed. So many women claim to be but very few are REAL.
I would be spiteful not to wish you well. The extent of your mental leaves me no choice. Asking God to look over my soul
And the souls from the Fiber of My Being!
-Be Forever!
Saturday, August 6, 2016
Potentially Definitely: Turning a New Leaf
Much could be said about 2016. Well, 2015 I skated by, I was shocked to say the least. Although my struggle was real, I did not give up the hope of seeing a better year! My birthday started off fun and hopeful and unfortunately, it was not a VERY happy one. Nonetheless, I can honestly say that when the clock struck twelve, I was happy and I had the time of my life, minus friends, minus family. I took a leap of faith and returned to Sweet Home Alabama for some good laughs and the crazy thought that I would hit a jackpot! So much for wishful thinking.
It turned out not to be a big deal, besides its March. And although I would like to forget; its not just March Madness in the NBA. March Madness is everyday, LOL!
Honestly, I was really, really wishing for a Four-Leaved clover. Instead, I experienced nervousness, excitement, nervousness, anger.
Some birthday. I cant camouflage that.... OoWee!
Lost my cars, lost employment. Grew Ill fated and depressed. Forreal. No Tears. Just potential tears.
It grew really bad, I didn't want to really go anywhere, or do anything.
Really had to regroup and put forth effort to move forward. Stature and money was and still is a bit funny to me based on the issues of twenty_sixteen.
I maybe....BLACK. "UGLY" but I'm still here! I say those words again because in the height of change and growth, I was tested HEAVY. My faith was tested HEAVY. And well, how many rounds of fire has to transpire?
Hear Me....
It has been really emotional. Growing and never FULLY changing. Morons.
I am potentially going to definitely see myself in a happy place other than my spirit.
I want happiness to exude in my mind, my body, not just my soul.
Is that too much to ask for in life? Leave a comment, I want to know....
-Be Forever!
It turned out not to be a big deal, besides its March. And although I would like to forget; its not just March Madness in the NBA. March Madness is everyday, LOL!
Honestly, I was really, really wishing for a Four-Leaved clover. Instead, I experienced nervousness, excitement, nervousness, anger.
Some birthday. I cant camouflage that.... OoWee!
Lost my cars, lost employment. Grew Ill fated and depressed. Forreal. No Tears. Just potential tears.
It grew really bad, I didn't want to really go anywhere, or do anything.
Really had to regroup and put forth effort to move forward. Stature and money was and still is a bit funny to me based on the issues of twenty_sixteen.
I maybe....BLACK. "UGLY" but I'm still here! I say those words again because in the height of change and growth, I was tested HEAVY. My faith was tested HEAVY. And well, how many rounds of fire has to transpire?
Hear Me....
It has been really emotional. Growing and never FULLY changing. Morons.
I am potentially going to definitely see myself in a happy place other than my spirit.
I want happiness to exude in my mind, my body, not just my soul.
Is that too much to ask for in life? Leave a comment, I want to know....
-Be Forever!
Thursday, October 29, 2015
Cold by Sha Jones
Living in a world that forces you to be uptight and offering your trust to no one, that's the hardship that ruined Tiffany Moore's life. Years of friendship, career,and marriage are destroyed when Tiffany suspects infidelity on her husband behalf. There are so many possible suspects in this mystery novel, that you would probably advise her to trust no one if you could.
The situation at hand is so far remove from feasible reality, you can't help but to be drawn into the suspense, and have so much faith in her marriage, but as time reveals, reality must be set in stone.
This novel will surely have you speechless, sympathetic, and hopeful as Tiffany Moore endures betrayal, heartbreak, romance, and pain.
***Lol Tank could not have said it better; Love, Sex, and Pain. No pun intended. ***
Great read, nicely composed!
-Be Forever!
The situation at hand is so far remove from feasible reality, you can't help but to be drawn into the suspense, and have so much faith in her marriage, but as time reveals, reality must be set in stone.
This novel will surely have you speechless, sympathetic, and hopeful as Tiffany Moore endures betrayal, heartbreak, romance, and pain.
***Lol Tank could not have said it better; Love, Sex, and Pain. No pun intended. ***
Great read, nicely composed!
-Be Forever!
The Lesson by Cynthia Blue
"Soul searching....my sole hurting." What is one to do when emotions overshadow reason? Well for Cyrus, he believed in playing to win. And, the cost of victory was priceless until his lies and deceit killed three humans.
Hope was shattered emotionally. Ivy was set financially. Honestly, it very hard to determine what Cyrus loved the most; loyalty or comfort. This is a fantastic novel, it's sexy, suspenseful, and tragic all on one breath.
Honestly, I was not to inspired to finish reading the novel after the first couple of pages. I gave it a "whomp-whomp" because I thought that it was just another racy novel, and I had an appetite for something a bit more wholesome. Nonetheless, I put my emotions aside and decided to read this novel, and I'm glad that I did! It's the epitome of passion; 'love or death' and it foreshadows the pain and agony that precedes death.
"Love is love..."
-Be Forever!
Hope was shattered emotionally. Ivy was set financially. Honestly, it very hard to determine what Cyrus loved the most; loyalty or comfort. This is a fantastic novel, it's sexy, suspenseful, and tragic all on one breath.
Honestly, I was not to inspired to finish reading the novel after the first couple of pages. I gave it a "whomp-whomp" because I thought that it was just another racy novel, and I had an appetite for something a bit more wholesome. Nonetheless, I put my emotions aside and decided to read this novel, and I'm glad that I did! It's the epitome of passion; 'love or death' and it foreshadows the pain and agony that precedes death.
"Love is love..."
-Be Forever!
Sunday, October 25, 2015
Little Dark Pieces by Maria McCartan
Ever been that girl who thinks she's in love and eventually goes nutty because its the next day, and Mr.Perfect has not called? If so, you would definitely be able to relate to the situational agony of Carly. Little Dark Pieces follows the life of Carly, a sweet,charming, and semi-geek who can not seem to quit smoking. In addition to smoking, she's crossed barriers and engaged in a passionate romance with her doctor. In the heat of the moment, things go awry between the two of them and she falls so ill from love she has to see a therapist!
Love will make you do some crazy things and through the duration of the novel, crazy grows mad, and passion run deep. When Carly discovers a darker side of her lover, she's forced with a pensive decision.
-Be Forever!
Love will make you do some crazy things and through the duration of the novel, crazy grows mad, and passion run deep. When Carly discovers a darker side of her lover, she's forced with a pensive decision.
-Be Forever!
Tuesday, October 20, 2015
Paint Me Gone by Molly Greene
Reading is so relaxing and insightful, what better way to indulge into insight by reading a practical mystery novel? Paint me gone is a classic mystery novel that can be rehearsed in many of the modern day suspense dramas that are broadcasted on television. I enjoyed the practicality of the novel as I was expecting it to be melodramatic like most modern day reads. Greene, however introduces the readers to Genevieve Delacourt, a private investigator who has lived through several cases as Paint Me Gone is the third mystery book to Greene series. The diction of the novel is fresh and clear. Honestly, I felt like I may have been lost reading a third installment to a series. The novel follows Gen as she works on a case of a missing sister who ironically is also a used of murder. When Gen is not working on the case, she is found making life changes with Oliver also known as Liv. The novel is a really great read and the suspense of the case will definitely have you pondering on possible suspects.
This book is awesome for relaxation, I found myself reading this novel right before bed at night and it made me feel as though I was tuning into a series weekly. There is nothing to dislike! I find this novel to be an inspiration to my very own project, and I look forward to reading more novels by Molly Greene is the future!
-Be Forever!
This book is awesome for relaxation, I found myself reading this novel right before bed at night and it made me feel as though I was tuning into a series weekly. There is nothing to dislike! I find this novel to be an inspiration to my very own project, and I look forward to reading more novels by Molly Greene is the future!
-Be Forever!
Tuesday, July 7, 2015
The Matrimony
Everyone is head over heels for the latest single by the Lyricist, Wale. The single is titled "The Matrimony," and some have even titled the song, "Making Plans."
Today, I was sitting and listening to the song, and I was intrigued, intensely, more than words could allow. Most people think of Matrimony as a fancy word for marriage, and be it as it may, it could be considered a fancy word. Truth be told, the word Matrimony is not fancy, just a complex and compound word. Let's take a look futher into the word.
Today, I was sitting and listening to the song, and I was intrigued, intensely, more than words could allow. Most people think of Matrimony as a fancy word for marriage, and be it as it may, it could be considered a fancy word. Truth be told, the word Matrimony is not fancy, just a complex and compound word. Let's take a look futher into the word.
First, the word begins :
MAT... One letter shy of mate.
So with MAT it is understood as mate or partnership.
Next, there is the TRI, the middle of the word. In math, we see or understand Tri to mean three. As in a Triangle. TRI is understood as the union of three entities
-Mind
-Body
-Soul/Spirit
And lastly, the end of the word is abridged version of the word monogamy or monogamous.
Monogamy is the condition of being married to one person at a time.
There is more to a word than what is oftentimes presented. Sometimes, to fully understand a word is has to be taken seriously, by exposing the variations of orgin to grasp the concept.
Personally, I do not feel that "Making Plans" is a suitable title for the song, as Usher proclaims that if there is a question of love, you got it, and that "it" is LOYALTY which solidifies monogamy.
Actually, on "Bad" song, also by Wale, he breifly speaks on monogamy. And based on his "More About Nothing" album, which is the prequel to his latest album, "The Album about Nothing," he interludes about how he can break down a relationship in a lot of different ways.
With, that being said, one could conclude that the complexities of relationships, love, and marriage is definitely an intensive, and thought provoking topic to lyricist.
Moreover, just the word, Matrimony itself, brings about questions that an individual should ponder upon before agreeing to a Testament.
Futhermore, the ring that is given to a wife, is a physical representation of a union. The band is merely the foundation of eternity; The Matrimony.
-Be Forever!
Monogamy is the condition of being married to one person at a time.
There is more to a word than what is oftentimes presented. Sometimes, to fully understand a word is has to be taken seriously, by exposing the variations of orgin to grasp the concept.
Personally, I do not feel that "Making Plans" is a suitable title for the song, as Usher proclaims that if there is a question of love, you got it, and that "it" is LOYALTY which solidifies monogamy.
Actually, on "Bad" song, also by Wale, he breifly speaks on monogamy. And based on his "More About Nothing" album, which is the prequel to his latest album, "The Album about Nothing," he interludes about how he can break down a relationship in a lot of different ways.
With, that being said, one could conclude that the complexities of relationships, love, and marriage is definitely an intensive, and thought provoking topic to lyricist.
Moreover, just the word, Matrimony itself, brings about questions that an individual should ponder upon before agreeing to a Testament.
Futhermore, the ring that is given to a wife, is a physical representation of a union. The band is merely the foundation of eternity; The Matrimony.
-Be Forever!
Monday, July 6, 2015
Celebrity Gossip Will Never Be the Same
Almost everyday, I find myself visiting the website, necolebitchie.com, and on one particular morning, I see a farewell post! Honestly, I was in disbelief after reading it!
Today, I was toggling my memory to see exactly how I discovered the website, I guess that I merely stumbled upon it, and once I did I was absolutely hooked! It was a great way for me to stay abreast with the Hip-Hip-hop community, get updates on my favorite celebrities, and become acquainted with new stars!
I totally admired the story behind the blogger, Necole! She inspired me in more ways imaginable, primarily because our struggle was very similar. I wanted to be in the midst of the here and now, and so did she! What was admirable, to me was her determination. That determination, dedication, and dependablity ultimately paved the way for her celebrity gossip site to become one of the most well-known, and reliable sources for celebrity news! Truly Amazing. I am still in disbelief that she has decided to leave the blogging community and pursue other endeavors!
Honestly, I am totally for growth and she has decided that it is time for her to make reality of dreams, goals and aspirations! You go gyrli! I will definitely continue to support your future projects!
Wishing you success!
-Be Forever!
Today, I was toggling my memory to see exactly how I discovered the website, I guess that I merely stumbled upon it, and once I did I was absolutely hooked! It was a great way for me to stay abreast with the Hip-Hip-hop community, get updates on my favorite celebrities, and become acquainted with new stars!
I totally admired the story behind the blogger, Necole! She inspired me in more ways imaginable, primarily because our struggle was very similar. I wanted to be in the midst of the here and now, and so did she! What was admirable, to me was her determination. That determination, dedication, and dependablity ultimately paved the way for her celebrity gossip site to become one of the most well-known, and reliable sources for celebrity news! Truly Amazing. I am still in disbelief that she has decided to leave the blogging community and pursue other endeavors!
Honestly, I am totally for growth and she has decided that it is time for her to make reality of dreams, goals and aspirations! You go gyrli! I will definitely continue to support your future projects!
Wishing you success!
-Be Forever!
Monday, June 22, 2015
Spiritual Growth
Spiritual warfare is a very real battle. Not only do you have to be a strong believer, you have to work towards complacency so you dont have to show others or prove I would rather say. I want to get to a place in my spiritual walk, where I wake every morning ready to show the world, better yet tell the world of Goodness! Its not easy, any effort is better than no effort! I can say that spiritually, I feel more whole than I have in a long time. I noticed lately a lot of women that I see while in transit, are frazzled, constantly searching for something. I wish I could tell them to just be still, and ask for peace of mind. I can not. I have too much work to do for self. Moreover, I do not want to fall victim of the same depressing routine. Where they are looking and searching to no avail. Why? There are many people who choose those blasphemous ways of life just to get by.... I just know that spiritually, Im in a happy place, and I am still working through a few things. With, patience, I'm getting answers and results. I cant even say that there is a feeling of gloom anymore, Im accepting of life, who I am is who I am, and knowing that thus is such, It would be hypocritical of me to see you, judge you, or hold you to a higher decree.
-Be Forever!
-Be Forever!
Lip Sync
I have recently found a fascination for lipstick, the only problem is finding that perfect shade of color! Im still wondering why there's this excitement, why are there lip stick rules? I feel like if you find a color and you like it you should wear it! Sometimes we over think things. I do not really care for the rules, the rules were made up by some insecure woman.Meh! So, I found this really vibrant lip shade by MAC I really liked it at first. Then all these women started rocking the same color and I didnt like the lip color anymore. Go figure. So, I took the lipstick back to the store. Its so annoying when women do I spy.... so, I mean I could pretty much say A LOT..... Instead, I will say this, think outside the box and live for you, not the next womans lips...
Not flattered, just disguised.
DONT HOLLER!
-Be Forever!
Not flattered, just disguised.
DONT HOLLER!
-Be Forever!
Thursday, January 1, 2015
PR_AYING HANDS
Forgive, those who spitefully use you. Forget, those who ridicule your character. Follow your heart and always trust yourself. Live for the moment, the next is not promised.
Take responsibility for your character, your morals, your values; its the substance of who you are.
Systematically think, it may keep you from anger and danger.
Use the fragmented beats of your heart to guide your footsteps, leading you to a peaceful destiny.
Your head for clearer thinking, your hands for greater giving, your heart for purer loving, your health for better living.
Harden not your posterior. Examine your exterior to keep your interior clear. Live not in fear but be careful life is more so what you believe it to be than what is displayed before you.
Chase after your dreams, see light in the dark and gray areas.Forgive, let go, of hurt. Trust and Let reality manifest. He won't fail! When someone tells you you're beautiful; believe them ; they see what you can not!
Perception, belongs to the eyes of the beholder.
Aye!
-Be Forever!
Take responsibility for your character, your morals, your values; its the substance of who you are.
Systematically think, it may keep you from anger and danger.
Use the fragmented beats of your heart to guide your footsteps, leading you to a peaceful destiny.
Your head for clearer thinking, your hands for greater giving, your heart for purer loving, your health for better living.
Harden not your posterior. Examine your exterior to keep your interior clear. Live not in fear but be careful life is more so what you believe it to be than what is displayed before you.
Chase after your dreams, see light in the dark and gray areas.Forgive, let go, of hurt. Trust and Let reality manifest. He won't fail! When someone tells you you're beautiful; believe them ; they see what you can not!
Perception, belongs to the eyes of the beholder.
Aye!
-Be Forever!
Monday, October 20, 2014
No complaints, under these lights
Its the end and the beginning of a new! No complaints, I'm dranking, I'm thanking, I'm sanging on the mic to my boy toy, still I fill the tub up half way, then ride it with my #surfboard #surfboard..... So fresh so clean. Its a new day, what are you doing?
-Be Forever!
-Be Forever!
Nail It!
Round, square,"sqround,"stillettoed, French, American, bowed,color dipped, gel, acrylic, minxed, pink and white, or solar. The trend for the fall is definitely expressive nail creations. Your nails ultimately tell a complete stranger who you are with a complete glance. And, with so many options, you can change your mood as much as you like!
And for the corporate working woman, nail expression can be a fun and creative challenge! The most common and popular nail trend is the acrylic nail; where the consumer can choose an overlay process or a nail to tip process. Pink and white is a happy medium and also versatile as pink and white can be done with acrylic or gel acrylic and white tipped nails.
Gel nails are in high demand because of its gentleness on the nail bed and the quality of staying "fresh" throughout the given two week time span of nail treatment and the application. Solar nails use both powder and gel for an effortless natural finish! Once you've decided on how you want to protect your nails, the next step is deciding on what you want your nails to express! Pastels, opaque, medium to dark colors are fun for the fall, while classic manicures never get old!
Nail designs, crackle polish, bows, pearls, golds, silvers,etc are cute assesories that require special glue to secure the application. Finally curve your enthusiasm! How do you want your nails to grow? Round, square "sqround" or stilettoed.
Once you've picked an application, and choosen a shape to complete your expression. Whatever you choose, make sure you Nail It!
-Be Forever!
And for the corporate working woman, nail expression can be a fun and creative challenge! The most common and popular nail trend is the acrylic nail; where the consumer can choose an overlay process or a nail to tip process. Pink and white is a happy medium and also versatile as pink and white can be done with acrylic or gel acrylic and white tipped nails.
Gel nails are in high demand because of its gentleness on the nail bed and the quality of staying "fresh" throughout the given two week time span of nail treatment and the application. Solar nails use both powder and gel for an effortless natural finish! Once you've decided on how you want to protect your nails, the next step is deciding on what you want your nails to express! Pastels, opaque, medium to dark colors are fun for the fall, while classic manicures never get old!
Nail designs, crackle polish, bows, pearls, golds, silvers,etc are cute assesories that require special glue to secure the application. Finally curve your enthusiasm! How do you want your nails to grow? Round, square "sqround" or stilettoed.
Once you've picked an application, and choosen a shape to complete your expression. Whatever you choose, make sure you Nail It!
Tuesday, July 1, 2014
Live Fearlessly
Life is what you make of it, and some of the time, we are put in situations that forces us to fight. With that being said, I'm hoping that in the ptesence of adversity, you fight for your life. Seek to live a life that is rich in happiness, look forward to better days, and most importantly do not fall victim to a minor set back, Bloom! Show the world who you are, live life to its fullest capacity! Let this be a test, so, that you can live to tell others, that even in your darkest hour a beam of light came through to guide you to what would become your destiny. Live fearlessly!
-Be Forever!
-Be Forever!
The Rules of Attraction by Bret Easton Ellis
The Rules of Attraction
The Rules of Attraction by Bret Easton Ellis is a novel written in a manner that transcends from decade to decade. His descriptive writing allows for slight innovation and is the blue print for many situational series produced for television.
The characters within his novel suffer from emotional dysfunctions primarily because they are college aged adults; working toward self discovery. The most important rule of Attraction, is that there are no rules. Believing so, Ellis single handedly gives the reader insight to various emotions and sexual encounters during the course of the novel.
With several of the characters there are feelings of resentment towards their counterparts as well as oblivious dispositions towards the emotional feelings or balance of feelings throughout. Some of the behavior described could be considered animalistic; or even belligerent.
With all the chaotic charades of campus living, how could one be concerned with rules of attraction? The novel solidifies two phrases: one, "Survival of the fittest," and, two,"It's a dog eat dog world."
The characters are not necessarily looking to obey a set of rules more so than they are seeking exactly where they fit or belong in such a universe. The novel is a great read, if you have not done so, read The Rules of Attraction, Ellis will not disappoint your curiosity; the novel will definitely give you insight and a different opinion about dating.
-Be Forever!
Monday, June 23, 2014
When does the journey get easier?
I am in a very place- or more fittingly appropriate space in my life. It seems as though burdens only become more burdensome than anything. I mean I just want to lock myself in the closet and eat double cheese burgers until my heart explodes because my arteries are clogged from all the grease and fat. I'll be too stuffed to get fitting for funeral attire so my body would have to be burned and sorted through the ocean.
I feel like I'm being stalked. For real and its super creepy, so I go to therapy every week. Thats really not going anywhere. I feel like Im talking in circles instead of moving forward. Why does it seem that there is no urgency in my recovery?
And doctors prescribe shitloads of calorie filled pills and you're burning up inside and outside because its the summer time. I guess they feel like if they give me enough pills with sugar in them I eventually develop an artificial happiness, its not working, if anything it is making me more miserable.
I'm not looking at my past for a moment in regret. I can say it enough, that I'm looking towards something new. You couldnt understand if I could explain it in a more simple nonverbal statement. Its unfair to be labeled as something you're not when the very people who put this labels on you are the ones who actually mental evaluation.
I mean to think that you have to water yourself down so that those who could care less can catch-up. Yes. Like your real friends know where you're suppose to be and the slow motion click is getting grandfathered into positions and stature and they have no idea how to correctly perform the duties of their "career" And, you've been a college grade for six years, to no avail. And, I can't respect someone who thinks that self-reliance is "stupid" or "dumb."
And the ignorant ones laugh, and call you names because to actually have an opinion is a foreign thought, never heard of. Basic. Simple. Average.
Its either better or ended it; the world that is. People wake up everyday for what? What motivates you to live everyday? And then having to inhabit yourself around negativity constantly for years is never conducive to growth and positivity; is it? I cant see it being so.
Stop the facades. You are only making a mockery of yourself.
Listening to R.Kelly "Did you get my card"
<3
- Be Forever
I feel like I'm being stalked. For real and its super creepy, so I go to therapy every week. Thats really not going anywhere. I feel like Im talking in circles instead of moving forward. Why does it seem that there is no urgency in my recovery?
And doctors prescribe shitloads of calorie filled pills and you're burning up inside and outside because its the summer time. I guess they feel like if they give me enough pills with sugar in them I eventually develop an artificial happiness, its not working, if anything it is making me more miserable.
I'm not looking at my past for a moment in regret. I can say it enough, that I'm looking towards something new. You couldnt understand if I could explain it in a more simple nonverbal statement. Its unfair to be labeled as something you're not when the very people who put this labels on you are the ones who actually mental evaluation.
I mean to think that you have to water yourself down so that those who could care less can catch-up. Yes. Like your real friends know where you're suppose to be and the slow motion click is getting grandfathered into positions and stature and they have no idea how to correctly perform the duties of their "career" And, you've been a college grade for six years, to no avail. And, I can't respect someone who thinks that self-reliance is "stupid" or "dumb."
And the ignorant ones laugh, and call you names because to actually have an opinion is a foreign thought, never heard of. Basic. Simple. Average.
Its either better or ended it; the world that is. People wake up everyday for what? What motivates you to live everyday? And then having to inhabit yourself around negativity constantly for years is never conducive to growth and positivity; is it? I cant see it being so.
Stop the facades. You are only making a mockery of yourself.
Listening to R.Kelly "Did you get my card"
<3
- Be Forever
Wednesday, June 11, 2014
ALL DEF DIGITAL's LOVE DOLLHOUSE Interviews with THE BREAKFAST CLUB @ POWER 105
ALL DEF DIGITAL INTRODUCES LOVE DOLLHOUSE
Checkout the interview and their latest video!
Saturday, May 17, 2014
Tuesday, April 29, 2014
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